Delusion.
The word is “delusion”.
And it may happen for many reasons.
To drop alcohol of a sudden, 40.5° C of fever, not to say more.
“—You perceive things most people cannot —she said—.
Every now and then they grow uncontrolled. That’s it.
—What if most of them are false?
—What if a minority, a very small minority, are true? What about that?”
Lete.
So much hell and the sun rises. At 4 a.m.
But raises, because you are listening to Gorgoroth.
Lete.
So much hell and the sun rises. Seriously, it is unbelieveable:
They have a vocalist and no one knows the words.
And I say no one.
Who knows if the singer!
Lete.
So much hell and the sun rises!
A deal, this time with the present:
“The mind remembers, the heart forgets”.
Lete.
So much hell and the sun rises.
I think I have decyphered the message
(No more I will eat…)
Those guys are theologists!
¡Lete!
So much hell, and the sun rises!
Turns out God has a sense of humour.
Resolution
Turns out no: You cannot cook an omelette without cracking the eggs. And so one day you throw a dart against the most certain of your heart.
And it starts to flow, it fissures.
Lava.
Terror.
Your very soul, and with her, the very fear she won’t return. A retribution, deliberately unleashed.
No. Turns out no.
I was 13:
—Can I paint with my hands?
—Sure, I have brought gloved.
—I said “with my hands”.
I was 25:
“It is like drinking something with 200 degrees…”.
“I think I’m starting to ser it”.
“There are many ways to be high. See, children, dance, jump on the street. They are high”.
I was 15:
Using alcohol as an excuse.
Coward excuse to project part of my inner self: so much hatred… Wrath. So ingrained.
Excuse or mere tool
I write this at age 27:
I write, with my heart. I speak, with my heart. I breathe, with my heart.
There’s no need for dope, not to mention how much money I am saving. I take a coffee and it seems coke, I smoke a blunt and it seems peyote.
No more hatred. No more shame, I set them ableze, and I even didn’t need to wait for it Saint Juan Fires…
I don’t know how old I was, I ignore how it could happen;
But the toys died. The toys died. The toys always die. And the dead doesn’t resurrect.
You cannot
Conduct a study with one single item.
It is only my experience, but it is very real. If a potential is to be developed, it will just develop.
It won’t matter how bad you try to frustrate it. It just will. By any means, necessary, or even for the laughs. And yes, I have seen it other times.
Just a weird thought:
Rocks are alive, only that they are much less alive than I am. I am but cells and atoms, in a neat order.
DNA. It is still a molecule, as complex as it is. Even of Stars we say they are born, then die.
And ultimately, consciousness.
Cells renew, periodically. Even those which don’t divide do renew on the atomic level.
And me… Who can be certain there is an «I».
…
There Wille zur Macht.
A moment as good as any other,
To remind there are more Psychologist into Mercadotechnia than into the whole National Health System.
Ancient wisdom.
“When I am in a huge mess, I ask to myself ‘What would Jesus Christ do?’, and I dissapear for three days.”
Thus finishes the homily and the church says… What will they say,
‘Amen.’
Like you can’t find information about that dream on Google;
Like you should understand, If you truly want to read that article, you should also be able to read that language.
My heart was a path.
And somewhere you would be.
You could be there.
And I going towards you
Or you seeking me,
Or meeting;
Intertwined.
But my heart was a path,
And there you could be,
But my heart was a path, and it realized
A certainty.
The most real: Any step could be the last one,
And so fall dead…
But my heart was a path
And there you could be.
Intertwined!
And step.
Step.
Step, and
Misstep!
Because any step could be the last one,
And there you could be…
My heart is a path.
